Illusion of Normality - Octoculus

Illusion of Normality

How real was the last year for me really? I wonder how it will be to go back and be in some sort of my old life again (it won't really be my old life, things are bound to have happened in the meanwhile...). This whole affair will fade away, it had a touch of irreality from the beginning: people I never would talk to in the first place, united mostly in the fact that we all were different from our surroundings. Which is an interesting way of being united. Right now all this is fading away, most of the people have left the city already, only some few of us are left. We are leaving in the order we came in. Even in the house. My French roommate left today, she came here a day after me. In some time I will leave, the first one to arrive here in the house in the beginning. Strange synchronicities. They even go on when I look at other people.
We had a whole special society, with different rules and interactions and relations than the whole rest of people here, all of a sudden we are a handful of students holding out to keep the illusion of normality up as long as possible. Or at least that weird feeling which we assumed was normality.
It is kind of weird: knowing that we most likely will never see the people again we just said goodbye to. After the umptenth time of saying goodbyes the words come easier and we don't think too much about them any more. I myself think about going home soon. I have to go home to go somewhere else afterwards. Counting days.

22.5.08 05:43

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